Wednesday, November 23, 2011

in clover: you say joyful, I say stressful

A few days ago, early, early in the morning, just as I was beginning to even realize that yes, I was awake, it hit me like a ton of bricks...."Holy S**T - I've got to get busy."  My brain started screaming, "GET UP NOW!  There's so much to do.  You will NEVER get it all done."   My brain was in full panic mode one minute and then, waving the white flag the next, "You might as well just lay here.  You're screwed anyway.  It's too late to do it all and you're just a a big old failure!" 

Yes, it's here.  THAT time of year.  The Holiday Season. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and Advent is beginning.

Time to deck the halls, prepare the feast(s), give time and money to those less fortunate and, above all, spend meaningful, quality time with friends and family!  (And oh yeah, I'm a Christian so I need to figure out how to squeeze some time in with G-O-D too.)

Here's what the dictionary has to say about the word "holiday."

The word holiday derived from the notion of "Holy Day", and gradually evolved to its current form. The word holiday comes from the Old English word hāligdæg. The word originally referred only to special religious days. In modern use, it means any special day of rest or relaxation, as opposed to normal days away from work or school...

I don't know about you but when I think of a holiday, the words rest and relaxtion rarely come up for me. 

I love the holiday season...I love being with family, I love decorating our home and I love cooking special meals.  I even love choosing special gifts.  Most of my friends say they love it too.

There is a problem though.  How do we do all of these extra things to make the holidays "special"  when our normal, everyday lives often feel so busy.....so full....so stressful?  

Perhaps I could stop asking you and focus on asking myself. "How do I do it?"  And the answer to that is, "Not very well."  

Entering into spiritual direction and spending a year of intentional contemplative living has completely transformed me.  Instead of poking Michael in the ribs, this year I waited for him to wake up on his own...before launching into the screeching, frantic litany that has become as much a tradition this time of year as the sweet potato casserole ....."I CANNOT do this alone.  You HAVE to help me."  And there must have been an echo in the room, because the same voice that just a few moments before been yelling at me was now urgently shouting at a bewildered and half asleep Michael, "GET UP NOW! There's so much to do!"  

It's totally unfair because Michael is completely willing to do anything I ask. He really pitches in and does a great deal of the work in our home.  I understand why it hurts his feelings when I start screeching like that.  Especially if he is still half asleep.  Honey, if you are reading this, I'm sorry.  

I don't have an easy answer for myself and I sure don't for any of you.  If you have suggestions, do us all a favor and post them in the comment section.  I am very organized. I've read all the books AND implemented many of the suggestions I found in them.  I've cut back. I've simplified.

The fact is, this time of year, everyone wants in on the fun...there are school parties, team parties, office parties, bookclub parties, and neighborhood parties. If you are part of any sort of community, odds are there will be a party. And you will have to bring a dish.  And maybe a Secret Santa gift.

There are holiday sights to see, special plays and music concerts, dance recitals and holiday sports tournaments to attend.  There are ministries to participate in that are meaningful and important,especially this time of year.

Anyway you slice it, this is a busy time of year. The only option we have then is to how we choose to respond.

You know how trees sometimes grow tall and wide and beautiful but in doing so, they begin to get in the way of powerlines?  Often, without thought for aesthetics or even the longterm health of the tree, utility companies will hastily whack off a tree top.  Or a whole side of a tree...leaving in their thoughtless wake scarred and sometimes fatally wounded trees.  I wish we would respect the trees.

One year, in an overreaction to the stress in my life, I did that to our Christmas celebration.  I pruned it back so hard that it was nearly unrecognizable.  That didn't work any better than the previous years of living for two months on caffeinne, alchohol and 3 hours of sleep, all to ensure a "perfect" holiday.  

On the other hand, those lovely, beautiful trees can get in the way of the powerlines and, when the days of wind and snow and ice are upon us, those trees can lose branches or even topple over...they can damage the powerlines...leaving us without light.  Leaving us in the cold. We must respect the power lines too. 

It's a delicate balance. We could do our best to stay mindful.  We could do our best to honor the needs of our bodies...for rest, for sleep, for healthy food.  We could do our best to carve out silent, still quiet moments in the midst of loud, chaotic, joyful busy-ness, wherever we can.

I will pray for you this joyful, stressful, meaningful, hectic, spirit filled, busy holiday season.   

I ask that you pray for me as well.  (And Michael.)

Namaste,

Lisa

Saturday, November 5, 2011

in clover: love apple

love apple

n.
A tomato.

[Probably translation of French pomme d'amour (from the former belief in the tomato's aphrodisiacal powers) : pomme, apple + de, of + amour, love.]

Lots of folks where I come from in Kentucky grow tomatoes.  Old people and young people.  Rich people and poor people.  Country people and city people.  Some of us have one tomato plant in a pot.  Some of us have more tomato plants than we can count.  

My grandfather grew more tomatoes than anyone I have ever known.  He never sold his but he sure did love to give them away.  When I took Michael "home" to Western Kentucky for the first time, my grandfather, in the early morning hours, left a love offering at our door...a large dirty box of freshly picked, just right ripe, homegrown tomatoes.  Michael pondered what we would do with so many tomatoes.  I showed him one way my grandfather had taught me to eat them.  We sliced the sun warmed fruit, layered the red, juicy slices on a platter, sprinkled them ever so slightly with salt, and ate them for breakfast. 

Michael and I have shared many breakfasts, none quite so memorable as that one though. We both remember so well sharing those misshapen, dusted with garden soil, ripe, warm, red, juicy orbs. The day that began with that breakfast was the day we first told each other, "I love you."  Those tomatoes are a part of our shared sacred story...a seedleaf of the twining vine that is our relationship. Thank you, so much, Grandaddy. 

This year, I planned to have many, many tomatoes but I encountered a soil problem (read about it here) so I got a late and meager harvest. 

Still, by late summer, most days I could pick a few rlpe, red, pink, or yellow tomatoes.  My absolute favorite was named "Sweet Baby Girl," a cherry tomato I purchased from Wilson's Nursery (read about it here).  Not a single one of the sweet, small fruits this plant produced made it into our house.  They were so delicious, I polished them off on my shirt and ate them in the garden. 

Not too long ago, I picked the last of my tomatoes.  Our weather has dipped into cold temps a few times.  Cold temperatures (whether on the vine in the garden or stored in the refridgerator) alters the taste of fresh tomatoes. The vines were beginning to wither.  I pulled them from the ground and gave them to my hens...a feast of green vines and fruit.  





Here they are...some of the last of the harvest. I laid them on the blue table in the potager.  I admired the imperfection of the skins, the diversity of size, color, shape.  I anticipated the flavor within.




I took some of the tomatoes and I made a simple Tomato Basil soup. Michael took one taste and asked me to double, at least, the number of tomato plants in our garden next year. 



At a party I hosted recently, a good friend offered a beautiful dish starring tomatoes grown in her own garden.



Yes, we Kentuckians are in love with our homegrown tomatoes. But now our growing season has come to an end and we must purchase our tomatoes either in a can or from a grocery or market.  I wonder what kind of cosmic coincidence served to deliver to my email inbox,  on the same day I removed the last of the tomato vines from my garden, an invitation to read a book about the tomato industry, specifically, the Florida winter tomato industry. 





I really wish you all would read this book. You can click here to order it from Amazon:  "Tomatoland:  How Modern Industrial Agriculture Destroyed Our Most Alluring Fruit" by Barry Estabrook.  Or check your local library or bookstore.  In this post, I will quote this book extensively. (If words are italicized, they are directly quoted from the book.)

Until I read this book, I did not know that one third of the fresh tomatoes raised in the US are raised in Florida or that "from October to June, virtually all the fresh-market, field-grown tomatoes in the country come from the Sunshine State, which ships more than one billion pounds to the United States, Canada and other countries every year."   I did not know that Americans bought 5 billion dollars worth of commercially grown tomatoes in 2009 or that today's commercially grown tomato is far less nutritious, containing 30 - 60% less vitamin c, thiamin, niacin and calcium but 14 times as much sodium, than a commercially grown tomato sold in a supermarket during the Kennedy adminstration, just 50 years ago.

One thing I did know was that most store bought tomatoes might look pretty but they sure don't taste very good. I didn't give it much thought, other than  frequently refusing tomatoes on my sandwiches and salads at restaurants.

I did not know that Florida growers cannot export any old tomato variety they might choose to plant.  The author explains that "because their coloration and shape don't conform to what the all-powerful Florida Tomato Committee says a tomato should look like...the cartel like Committee...decrees that slicing tomatoes shipped from South Florida in the winter must be flawlessly smooth, evenly round, and of a certain size.  Taste is not a consideration."  

I did not know that sandy Florida fields are almost always treated with a chemical called methyl bromide in preparation for planting tomatoes in a process one grower says is "like chemotherapy."  When I googled methyl bromide one of the first sites that popped up was from the Illinois Department of Emergency Preparedness...I noticed the word "bioterrorism" in the url address.  "Banned from most crops, methyl bromide can still be used on strawberries, eggplants, peppers and tomatoes....The fumigant can kill humans after brief exposure in small concentrations.  Sublethal doses cause disruptions in estrogen production, sterility, birth defects, and other reproductive problems."  

But that's just the beginning for a Florida tomato plant.  "To combat...pests, a conventional Florida farmer has a fearsome array of more than one hundred chemicals at his disposal....They include carcinogens, chemicals that cause damage to the brain and nervous system...reproductive system...birth defects...chemicals that are so dangerous that even brief exposure can kill a person outright.....An acre of Florida tomatoes gets hit with five times as much fungicide and six times as much pesticide as an acre of California tomatoes."  (Most California tomatoes are grown for canning.)

I didn't know those things specifically but I had a pretty good idea that conventionally grown fruits and vegetables are not very good for you and that organically grown food is safer.  I am ashamed to say that my "splurging" to buy organics was based on a desire to keep my family safe and healthy.  I never gave a thought to those who work and unfortunately, live in toxic clouds of chemicals.  "Workers are exposed to those chemicals on a daily basis.  The toll includes eye and respiratory ailments, ...and babies born with horrendous birth defects."  (And by horrendous, the author means limbless babies...babies born to migrant farm worker mothers who have neither arms nor legs, babies born with no identifiable sex organs, or born missing eyes, ears, a nose, kidneys, an anus.) 

But then I read something that I had absolutely no idea about.  "Less than an hour after leaving Naples, {a popular vacation destination for many Kentuckians}...you...enter the city of Immokalee....ground zero for modern-day slavery....any American who has eaten a winter tomato, either purchased at a supermarket or on top of a fast food salad, has eaten a fruit picked by the hand of a slave....That's not an assumption....That is a fact." 

The descriptions that followed caused me to weep....inhuman living conditions,  beatings, murders, "workers sold to crew bosses to pay off bogus debts...held in chains, pistol whipped, locked at night into shacks in chain-link enclosures patrolled by armed guards....In this world, slavery is tolerated, or at best ignored.  Labor protections for workers predate the Great Depression.  Child labor and minimum wage laws are flouted.  Basic antitrust measures do not apply.  The most minimal housing standards are not enforced....All of this is happening in plain view, but out of sight, only a half-hour's drive from one of the wealthiest areas in the United States."  

And in the end, after all of this death and despair, poverty, misery, murder and enslavement...despite the enormous cost, that tomato DOESN'T EVEN TASTE GOOD. 

That tomato is, in fact, often nearly inedible.  But we buy them anyway.  "We buy winter tomatoes, but that doesn't mean we like them.  In survey after survey, fresh tomatoes fall at or near the bottom in rankings of consumer satisfaction...."No consumer tastes a tomato in the grocery store before buying it.  I have not lost one sale due to taste,' one grower said.  'People just want something red to put in their salad.""   


As Estabrook states, "Not everyone can grow a garden or head out to a neighborhood farmer's market in search of the ideal tomato."

So what can we do?

There are other alternatives for growing healthy, safe, tasty tomatoes commercially.  The book discusses them and the growers who are making a living in this way, all the while providing safe living and working conditions for their employees and paying a fair wage.  One farm mentioned, Lady Moon Farms, has made a sucess of organic farming in Florida, something most conventional growers would claim impossible. Another farm featured in the book is Eckerton Hill Farm, located outside New York City. This farm supplies many of the gourmet restaurants in NYC.  Eckerton Farm is not organic.  Tim Stark, the owner, says he is not organized enough to keep up with the required governmental paperwork.  However, he has only used fungicides once in fourteen years, to prevent blight from claiming his entire crop, and he applied it to the plants himself.  He does not use chemical fertilizers.  THESE are the types of tomatoes we can buy.

We can be mindful of the taste of the food we eat, and mindful of from where and how that food comes to our table.  As I type this, I am listening to a meditation I am considering offering at a Disciples of Christ sponsored Green Retreat.  In the meditation, the guide instructs me to "feel the joyful pride within you swell, at being a part of loving the earth." 

That's what we can do.

As People of Faith or People of Conscience, we can buy our food intentionally and mindfully...and then we can feel the joyful pride within each of us swell...pride at being a part of loving the earth, loving our bodies, and loving our neighbors (the workers and their children who toil in the fields) as ourselves. 

We can reject what passes as a tomato on most store shelves today. We can say no to the high price it carries and the philosophy behind it.

Instead, we can embrace the love apple.






   




  
 










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