This is an excerpt from a blog post I wrote in June of last year:
... Unfortunately, in six weeks time there has been very little growth and blooms wither almost immediately, instead of setting fruit. I don't think we were intentionally given hot compost but I do think we got soil that was not ready for use. Next time I will listen to my inner voice and trust my instincts.
Now that the compost has had a year to cure, I have no qualms about planting in the raised beds this year. But before I could make even a hurried trip to the gardening center to pick up tomatoes and cucs, I noticed something was all ready growing. I was tempted to pluck out the "weed" but instead, I left it alone. Before long I could see that this was not a weed. Before long, the plant looked like this:
I texted the photo to a knowledgeable veggie growing friend..."Is this a zucchini?" I asked. "Not sure. Definitely some sort of squash" came the reply text.
In gardening and botanical terminology, a volunteer is a plant that grows on its own, rather than being deliberately planted by a farmer or gardener. Volunteers often grow from seeds that float in on the wind, are dropped by birds, or are inadvertently mixed into compost. Unlike weeds, which are unwanted plants, a volunteer may be encouraged once it appears, being watered, fertilized, or otherwise cared for. (Wikipedia).
I watched this squash vine grow and grow and grow with no attention from me...it's by far the largest and healthiest looking plant in my garden. Today it looks like this:
I never intended on growing a sprawling squash of any sort in the raised bed. It really needs somewhere to grow. Yesterday I constructed a makeshift bamboo trellis. The curly tendrils of the plant have all ready latched on to the bamboo overnight...
And this morning I was greeted by these gorgeous blooms...
I am still not sure what kind of squash this is...the most reliable way I can think of to know is to simply wait and see.
In the early spring months, I begin planning my garden. I start with pencil and paper. I sketch diagrams and make lists. I consult experts. I make every effort to get the right plant in the right spot. And I tend to choose plants I have grown before. Less room for error.
I also tend to approach life in this same way. Lots of planning and list making and sticking to what I know.
Last weekend, I completed my second year of training as a spiritual director with Sycamore Spirituality Center. By this time next year, I will "be" a spiritual director. A few days ago someone asked me how I got started in spiritual direction. It's a long and meandering story...full of unexpected turns and lots of synchronicity.
At the time, I had plotted and planned to enter seminary. I was ready to train for a new vocation and I definitely felt a call. I didn't want to preach because public speaking of any sort made me sick to my stomach. But I hoped I could serve a church in other ways...or hospital chaplain seemed like it would be a good fit. I was enjoying my volunteer work at UK Children's Hospital.
I applied and was accepted and began breaking the news to friends and family. But by the time I was actually ready to begin, I was no longer sure I was on the right path. Finally I confided in a friend who is also a minister. I remember what I tearfully asked her. "What else can I do? If I know God is making a call on my life and I don't believe it includes the seminary path, what do I do? I really don't know. Do other paths even exist???"
She asked, "Have you considered spiritual direction?"
My reaction to her words was pretty much the same as my reaction when I first discovered the mystery squash growing in the garden this spring.
"What the hell is that?"
A volunteer grows on it's own rather than being deliberately planted...often grows from seeds that float on the wind...
As I approach the end of my training, my questioning mind has bombarded me with questions about the future...will anyone consider spiritual direction to be "real" work? Will anyone actually want me to be their spiritual director? Will I work with directees one on one? Or will I do group work? Or both? Where? And how will I get started? Will I earn enough to help with Big C's college expenses?
I've tried to tackle these questions with a pen and a notebook....I've consulted experts....sketched diagrams and made lists. I've plotted and I've planned.
But finally I've decided (for the moment, at least) that like the mystery squash in the garden, I must simply wait and see what fruit this particular volunteer bears. In the meanwhile I can only focus on tending the plant.
Mother Earth News says this about volunteer plant, which the writer calls "a garden bonus" :
Produce from volunteer plants is often bigger and tastier than are intentionally cultivated crops. After all, the plants have sprouted where they want to grow, as opposed to where you want them to.
That gives me hope.
Peace and all good,